Why am I irritable sometimes?

Have been feeling irritable lately, tried to pinpoint exactly
why I felt the way I was feeling but could find no particular
reason. My love was in touch, constantly reminding me
of the love he feels for me, I could feel inner peace radiating
around me for I had dared myself to be myself and let out my
feelings by saying the truth about the situation at my workplace,
my home was filled with cousins who adore me and happiness
was in the house as well as within me, so what could possibly be
causing this irritability, I wondered.  So last night I sat down and
 got in touch with my inner self which is where I got the answer
to why I was feeling irritable. To my surprise when Dumi my love
called me this morning before I had said anything he said that
 he was feeling irritable. I marvelled at this connection that we
have which makes us feel emotions the same way at the same time,
extra sensory perception is what it is called.

You might be curious as to why we were both feeling irritable and
I won't go into detail about that because it is personal. All I can say
is that God made humans in such a way that when they love someone
they get some sexual feelings for that person and when those feelings
are not released one is bound to be irritable sometimes. But irritability
does not cause death so my love and I vowed to ourselves and to each
other that no matter how irritable we get as we stay apart we were
going to remain faithful to each other. We agreed that love
unaccompanied by fidelity and trust looses its meaning completely and
since we value our love more than any other human feeling we were
not going to do anything that undermines our love and trust for each
other.

My love taught me that the power of love if combined with the power
of the mind and imagination through words lovingly spoken by the
one you love can actually result in the release of those sexual emotions.
We put it in practice and it works for us which explains why it is not
always that  we feel irritable even though we are distance apart, some
days we would have taken care of each other through phone
communications.

My dear friends now that  I have answered the questions you have been
asking behind the scenes concerning long distance relationships and sex
and sexuality with some trying to plant a seed of doubt in my mind
concerning how my man was managing his sexual emotions whilst apart
from me let me conclude by saying that I trust my man completely just
as I trust myself and so the seeds of doubt you tried to plant did not sprout.

September 11

September 11
How my heart bleeds at the thought of all those innocent civilians
who died on this day. I remember seeing it on CNN and crying that
day as I saw some of the victims jumping out windows in
panic desperation. I wondered at the reasons behind such an attack.
I am of the opinion that nothing ever justifies violence. What
exactly was the point of killing so many innocent souls?

I believe in peace and dream of a world devoid of violence of
any form. Imagine a world in which we all love each other and
live in peace and harmony. Such a world would be pure bliss.

In memory of the September 11 victims I spent
the last 30minutes of this 11th day of September 2007 praying
for peace, love and happiness unto the whole world.

Works that witness

What people should realise is that being at the helm makes one
vulnerable to critics, analysts and reporters, in fact
everyone would be watching your every move and your life becomes
an open book for  everyone to read. It is therefore imperative that
people at the helm do their work perfectly and be blameless in their
behaviour. They should have works that witness if they want to 
silence everyone from pointing out their mistakes.

This reminds me of the story of Daniel in the bible. Daniel 6:3-4
Daniel conducted himself so well and so honorably in his high office that
Darius gave thought of setting him over the whole realm. The other
presidents and princes, however, were jealous and began to devise means
of getting rid of Daniel. But hard as they tried, they could find nothing in
his life to use against him. The bible says that he was faithful nor was there
any error or fault found in him.
What a record! What a testimony! He was loyal and conscientious on the job
-all the while giving God first place. Daniel's life was so far above reproach
that his enemies had to create a situation in which his commitment to God
would come into conflict with his government position.

Would you stand up under close examination like this? Are we so faithful
in our work that our fellow employees could find no charge or fault in us.?
It's commendable to witness for Christ. But consider the influence of a
godly life and a job so faithfully performed that others could find no fault.
That would certainly silence the critics  and glorify God.

So when you are up there at the helm and you don't want the Eusebias of
this world to tell the truth about your works make sure that your works
are above reproach, are blameless. Otherwise you might end up sounding
like a broken record from having to ask again and again, " Eusebia, who do
you think you are?" when I publish your mistakes on my blog.

 

Who do you think you are?

Ever done something that made someone say, "Who do you think you
are?" I am always doing things like that and so am always being asked that question. My answer is always short and precise, "I am me."
Little do the people who ask me that question know that, that type of question
has absolutely no effect on me. Some of us were lucky enough to get
a sense of security, worth and confidence in childhood. We knew we
were somebody not because we could read faster, jump higher or above
average in intelligence but just by being us. My parents gave us a
fantastic sense of security and worth. By the time the bigots got around
to telling us we were nobody, we already knew we were somebody, God's great invention for a unique purpose on this planet earth.

Other people have to learn the hard way that they are who they are and
who they are is somebody. They have had to give themselves the sense of
security.  While others have never experienced the feeling of being
somebody, of having the confidence and conviction that they are okay as
they are.

The confidence that I have comes from the self-approving voice inside me.
My self-approving voice isn't impressed by thundering applause. I don't
need to do every laudable thing I ever thought of or possess every positive
trait I aspire to in order to hear it.  Even if my fiancee says I am great, my dad
says I am great, my friends say I am great, my kids say I am great and my
workmates who are not jealousy say I am great, I won't feel great if I don't
hear the self-approving voice inside me which comes from appreciating myself
as I am. All I am trying to say is that we are the only ones who can give 
ourselves a sense of worth, security and confidence in ourselves.

 

Let the truth be told

There are people who when they leave make you sigh
with a sense of loss but there are also those who when they leave
make you sigh with a sense of relief.
Last Friday there was a sense of relief at my workplace as the
managing director at the company that I work for was serving
his last day at work. In the corridors you could hear people
celebrating with words and the saying of the day was, "Good
riddance of bad rubbish." Yet during the same week the PR
officer had placed an article in the newspaper thanking him
for a job well done whilst he was MD of the company. We wondered
whose opinion the PR officer was expressing, it must have been his 
own as an individual because the general opinion in the company
was contrary to that. Let the truth be told.

Here is a man who joined the company when its financial position
was sound and solid and is now leaving the company when it is
operating on a deficit, its gross margins and productivity levels having
 drastically fallen down  steeply as staff morale spiralled down and this
has got nothing to do with the economic environment in the country
because a lot of other companies in the same industry are thriving well
in the very same environment. Why would such a manager be called an
excellent manager? Let the truth be told.

The very first thing he did when he got to the helm of the company
was to trim the organisational structure  by  offering a voluntary
exit package to those who wanted to leave. This was done without
proper research and planning so the new structure resulted in
understaffing in most departments. The voluntary exit package
was not attractive at all so it didn't lure as many employees as
he wanted it to and some of the middle managers whom he wanted
out as part of restructuring did not opt for the voluntary exit
package so he decided to retrench them. The way he retrenched them
had some legal loopholes so the middle managers took him to court
and won the case and for the past three years & up to now they have
been on full pay and benefits while seated at home. How can such a 
manager who caused some employees to be paid whilst doing nothing
for the company be called an excellent manager. Let the truth be told.

The second mistake he made was to rebuke the law by refusing to pay
market related salaries that had been awarded to the employees by an
arbitrator when the matter of low salaries was taken to Labour Court.
When employees went on a tools down strike in protest of his stance in
this issue he fired all of them despite the fact that they were acting within
the Labour Laws and also within the country's laws concerning strikes.
The result was gross understaffing and employees lost trust in him, and 
productivity levels went down drastically although the panel beaten weekly
performance measurement reports showed otherwise.  What he failed to
realise was that for the successful turnaround of any company there has got
to be trust and harmony between motivated employees and management.
Honestly how can such a manager be thanked for a job well done. Let the
truth be told.

The third mistake he made was to hire consultants who had to be
paid handsomely to undertake a job evaluation and grading exercise and
then never implement the grading system that the consultants recommended
when they finished the exercise. Why waste money on an exercise that you
don't want to implement. What excellent job well done was the newspaper
article talking about. Let the truth be told.

The last and gravest mistake he made was to underpay employees ever since he joined 
the company. The underpaying got worse as the years progressed such that
as I speak the salaries of employees in the company are not enough to sustain
them and their families for a week, the transport fares needed by the employees
for them to come to work for a month are more than the net salaries they get.
As a result there is a high turnover in the company, the number of employees
suffering from stress related diseases is very high and the number of employees
absenting themselves from work everyday is very high. All this is a result of
the employees being demotivated and realising that they are subsidising the company
instead of the company subsidising its employees. Everyone who has been to business
school knows the importance of motivating employees so we wonder why that word
seems not to exist in his managerial vocabulary.  All Employees are happy to see him
leave except that one employee who put that thank you message in the newspaper or
maybe the MD put it himself to market himself to prospective employers.

I believe in the power of truth.  One single truth, as Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn said upon
receiving his 1970 Nobel Prize for literature, is more powerful than all the weapons in
the world. In fidelity to truth lies true human dignity and a successful
path torwards positive change.